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I wasn’t really suppose to blog today…btw,I have so much stuck photos for me to post soon..But I just had a depressing day and I think I need to rant my ass out to just make myself feel better…
So this morning someone started messing up with my formspring acct…It was anon sa I don’t know who is it YET…I just hope that person knows that I could track him/her with the technology today. And I just hope that he or she is someone who I don’t trust with my heart…Well I guess it ain’t someone close to me,’cause those who are,totally knows what could happen if I get hurt with their actions.I just don’t understand why some people just want to mess you up for some reason. I mean,srsly, I’ve been saying this for the longest time…I’m paying up for my wrong actions in the past already,so leave me alone,let me be and let me have my peace. I have moved on from everything and I just want to be happy and enjoy my life like everbody else in this world. So please,stop it..As much as possible now,I try not to step on anyone and I’m trying to live my life in the most peaceful and enjoyable state that I could…It’s really painful for me to see these people trying to pull me down when all I want is to live my life to its fullest. I’ve broke a lot of hearts but you should know that A LOT of people broke my heart too…And if you think that my life is perfect,why don’t you try to be me for one day and feel how it really is. I have this scar from everything and it just won’t heal…and all the hurtful words and actions haunt me every night. So don’t think that because I’m living my life to its fullest is that I’m totally fine and happy and contented….But I’m trying to be…so let me be…
So that’s just part one of BV day…Oh Lord,let them all stop…but it ain’t finished!!
Today,I also found out that I have unfinished business with someone so dear to me in the past..And it’s really painful to hear his voice with so much negative emotions… I can’t wait for us to talk personally and just clear everything out for the good of both of us…This made me feel so hurt today,too…
Lastly,I was really looking forward to hanging out with a good friend on Friday to actually say what I wanted to say and to tell everything and I just miss him already…But he canceled our thing so that had me left hanging alone with myself.xp HAHAHA :] That made me feel fustrated too =c
UUUGGGH. I’m such an emotional wreck right now…And I can do is pray to God that everything’s gonna be better tomorrow. :] And everything’s gonna be alright! :] Please help me pray too,guys!Oh! I wanna thank my brother and my friends for comforting me today! It feels so good to know that a lot of people are there to back you up! <3
Sorry for the blabbing,guys…I just had to…I promise to actually make a good post soon. I think I should take my blogging seriously already but I’m such a lazy ass.xp